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Running with Scissors  
05:55pm 02/07/2015
 
 
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Woo gay rights! Woo history! What a time to be alive! I went to Cincinnati Pride and that was a lot of fun. Hustler had a free stand and a wheel to spin and Illyce and I won stupid lube and Hallie won a fucking vibrator. It was a good one too. So jealous!!!!

Cincinnati is actually going well this time around. I actually really like Cincinnati. I could see myself living here (with an adjustment for how long it takes to get places, holy crap!... and some real studying of a map of the neighborhoods because this city still confuses the shit out of me). I'm also getting a lot of work done that is beneficial to me, and I'm feeling more confident about teaching.

It's crazy to think that I'll actually be starting my second year at something. Don't get me wrong, I worked in mental health for 6 years, but none of that is ever the same. Hell, clients don't even stay on your caseload very long (they get transferred, they drop off the map, they fire you, etc.). This year I will have almost half my caseload different due to losing so many 8th grade students to high school, but otherwise I will be pretty stable. That's insane! I never stay somewhere long.

I'm actually really excited and invested in Parkway and what we're doing. Someone reminded me yesterday that Clark Montessori was the first public Montessori school in the US, and it opend around 15 years ago. And to think that we've been taking our classes there and that we know and have been taught by the esteemed, revered, wonderful Marta Donahoe... we're really very lucky. It is a good experience to have. I have learned, changed, and grown so much. We're 3 degrees of separation from Maria Montessori and ONLY FOUR FROM THE DALAI LAMA (he and Maria were basically bffs).

I've been working on a lot of things for mine and Tealie's classroom (as the Dream Team I can't imagine they would split us up, what a mistake!), and I also am revamping our 1:1 conferencing sheet (really proud of it, actually) and the IEP snapshots that no teachers read because it was too much. I'm simplifying both way down while also maintaining the purpose. I'm just making them clear and concise, for quick reference, and not for extensive reading.

In other news, I continue to get overstimulated every other day or so, to the point that I'm cranky and throw mini-tantrums on the way home and make my colleagues laugh, because in general I'm actually really positive and flexible and I guess I'm pretty funny when I'm annoyed so long as I haven't passed into Anger Zone and it isn't directed at you. But throw too many words at me for too long without breaks or think time and you've got trouble.

Today is one of those days but I'm drinking wine to help calm me down. Roscato, yum.

My phone broke on Friday in a disastrous display of karma. Holy hell did that hurt. It still stings, especially because by the time it broke I had already resolved to rectify my karma, I just can't until tomorrow. And trying to push it before tomorrow I felt like would do more harm than good. I've worked so hard to put that space in but have been obsessing about it all week and I'm terrified I won't be given the opportunity to do so. My anxiety is pretty much through the roof about it, every time I think about it my blood pressure skyrockets.

Tomorrow is our Moving On ceremony, the true closing out of our time in Montessori credential training (ignore the fact that we have a week left!). It will be emotional I'm sure.

I haven't cried since being here (so long as you don't count the tears when I watched that video of people hearing for the first time, that made me blubber so fast!), which is good for Montessori training. I think it means I'm sort of getting enough sleep... at least adequate in comparison to last year. And I've been working out with Hallie an average of every other day, getting my tired ass up at 4:30am. She follows this really neat program and I'm just taggin along. The Y's in Ohio modified their rules and it's really supposed to screw members from out of state because they're only supposed to get 3 "guest" visits per Y and then pay $12/time EVEN THOUGH she pays for a membership, etc. etc. This works in my favor so hard I could die because Brenda, the sweet southern-sounding lady who works the front desk at that time, told us it's cool since we're here only 18 days. SO THEY NEVER EVEN NOTICED I DON'T HAVE A MEMBERSHIP AT ALL. Lucky me, free YMCA for 3 weeks nyeh nyeh nyehhhh. Now to figure out what to do when I'm home, because I struggle with working out in the evening and GOD does it suck to get up that early (I love my morning coffee with Steve...). Who knows.

I've never mentioned it before, but rocks/stones have deep effect on me, and I'm not one of those people who believes in that kind of thing. My grandma, aunt and cousin have all been a part of that, and I always thought it was my imagination when I touched certain rocks, but I did a little experiment at Findlay Market last weekend, and I definitely feel something. Usually it's in my sinuses, temple, or across my forehead. Sometimes all over. But always on my head, and it's strong. It's insane. So I bought myself a couple of rocks that really screamed at me when I touched them. They are both types of quartz, interestingly. They're tumbled stones with symbols. One is a necklace with a butterfly, signifying grace and transformation, which I am sorely in need of. Every time I touch it my head goes haywire. The other is a coyote, the trickster with humor. Whenever I touch that one I get rolling waves across my forehead. I couldn't and still can't identify the significance of it, because I am not a trickster, and I love other people who have humor (and is, in fact, the number one way to make me swoon). Maybe it's the stone only. Maybe it's more than that.

I also got Haley some rocks to help with anxiety. I wrote down all the information and where the rocks are from but I'm dumb and forgot I wrote it on the back of a grocery list and threw it away. For sure though I know one big stone is garnet with something shiny laced in it. I remember thinking how cool it was. The other thing is lepidolite, I think. I'm hoping they will help ease her anxiety and panic.

I also found my next tattoo, for sure:
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Here's a link to the original post from 2007 where I initially broached the idea (back before all this gorgeous art came around). I would like to point you to the comments section as well where Bre tries to tell me not to get tattoos on my arms or crowd my back, hahahahahaha.  
 
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Natural stuff update  
02:37pm 17/01/2015
 
 
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So I've been using homemade shampoo, deodorant, and toothpaste since the end of December, and here are my updates:

Shampoo:
Love it. Really, it's great. I have to shake it for a second to mix it up, and it's runny in my hand - but all Dr. Bronner's are runny to begin with. If you recall, the only ingredients in the shampoo are coconut milk, Dr. Bronner's almond 18-in-1, and citrus essential oils. I don't even use a conditioner anymore. It foams up when I put it in my hair, when I brush it I don't have snarls, and when it dries my hair is so soft I love to touch it.

Deodorant:
Coconut oil, Shea butter, baking soda, arrowroot, essential oils.
I started with putting the deodorant in an old deodorant container, but I have since switched to a mason jar. Keeps the consistency up and is easier to extract the deodorant from with my finger. It's not greasy and any leftover on my finger after applying I just rub into my hands or on my arm.

During the first week, when I was "sedentary sweating" aka sitting in a hoodie and blanket that made me too warm but I like that feeling, I would stink. Since then I have been actively trying to take layers off if I am getting to the point of becoming moist and sticky. When I played ITG while wearing the deodorant, I got really sweaty but I didn't stink. At all.

The biggest adjustment is the sweating. Obviously I'm not using anti-perspirant, so now my armpits get wet. It's kind of hard to get used to for someone who has all these sensory issues, but because I HAVE noticed that I don't smell, my clothes don't get stained, and no balls of condensed deodorant in my arms, it's worth it. Plus, to be fair, in the past I have often stunk through layers of deodorant and also soaked my shirts. So it wasn't any different. But now I think I have worn ONE shirt that I got so warm that I had sweat circles. But again, that always has happened to me forever.

The only negative I have noticed is that I have gotten a bit... splotchy, from time to time in my armpit area. I don't want to call it a rash, because it looks more like miniature hives than a rash, but it can get itchy. I'm not sure if it's a combination of shaving and wearing it, or the mixture of my sweat with it, or the essential oil, of even if maybe I'm allergic to something? It's not been more bothersome than razor burn, so I've ignored it up to this point, it can just look a little unseemly. Certainly not more unseemly than deodorant balls, though, in my opinion.

Toothpaste:
I noticed that I did not update to post that I also made my own toothpaste. It was super easy: Coconut oil, baking soda, essential oils.
At first the taste was really sharp and made my mouth burn, but nowI really like it. My mouth feels clean and tingly, my teeth feel smooth, and I'm not sure if it's some random placebo but my teeth actually look whiter even though I've been drinking more coffee than ever. I just store it in a mason jar and dip my toothbrush in it.

I'm one of the laziest people ever, and all of these were so easy to make. I love that I've switched to all natural cleaning products (my stepmom supplied me with homemade soap made from oilve oil, almond oil, vitamin E, coconut oil and essential oils. And some sort of herb is in there because it's all over in the soap). 
 
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Steps in the right direction  
10:47pm 27/12/2014
 
 
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After months of hemming and hawing about wanting a natural shampoo instead of the chemical-laden ones (because I dye my hair, I already put so many chemicals in it... I just don't want any more! I see the hypocrisy but I cannot have that boring mousy hair), and then actually taking the time to read my deodorant and seeing that it has aluminum in it even though it's not clinical-strength, my aunt Connie serendipitously texted me with a link to an article about how to care for your skin without using chemical sunscreens, written by Wellness Mama. This then led to me clicking link after link in her blog, culminating in me finding recipes for both shampoo and deodorant.

In a fit of motivation, I went out to Mississippi Market, bought ingredients, and made the recipes. They were literally so easy to do that I made them while also making dinner at the same time.

The shampoo is made with half a cup of coconut milk, 2/3 cup of Dr. Bronner's Hemp with Almond oil Castille soap, and some amount of sweet orange essential oils (I think I used 30-40 drops). I dumped out what remained of some Bath and Body Works body wash that I was never going to use because I hated the smell (had to use some Goo Gone on the outside because it was sticky from the labels) and it was the perfect size.



The deodorant was made with coconut oil, shea butter, baking soda, arrowroot, and rose perfume essential oils. The recipe didn't specify how much essential oils to use, so I just put in 12 drops (I hope it wasn't too much!).



The recipe said to melt the oils gently in a mason jar.



It ended up this yellowy color-



I meticulously cleaned out my remaining deodorant stick (like, soap and a toothpick and took the entire thing apart. Every nook and cranny) and poured the mixture in to set. I was really proud of the result!



After a couple of hours sitting on the shelf, the deodorant has mostly hardened but the top layer is still liquidy. I put it in the fridge to help.

I read so many rave reviews of the stuff, including no more stains in the armpits, not smelling as much, and saving money. I have high hopes!
 
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